I think I’m stable now. I really think I am. I haven’t had a moodswing since I switched to my current meds. This is good, this is definitely good.
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I realized a few things today. One was that I’m hiding behind the cloak of ambiguity. Another is that I don’t know how to handle certain things… Like you.
You are not fragile in my hands, but unstable in them. And I think the dawn of thoughts previously alien to me precipitated this… Quasi-life, if you could call it that.
I’m tired of running after things in flight. Tired of this nomadic way of living- not knowing where I stand.
I hope things will get clearer soon. The storm must cease at some point in my life, right? I hope it does. Soon.