I’m back to being strong, I believe.
Certain things are bothering me still, yet I have managed to overcome them.
I can’t wait to go out this weekend.
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I’m trying to help someone.
I hope my plans push through.
I would really help big time.
Hiatus November 1, 2009
Focus is key.
Exertion is the door to wellness and happiness.
Love is the driving force to everything.
These things I have learned.
Getting Over It October 28, 2009
How do I get over something?
I simply forget. I don’t mind it. I laugh it off.
That’s the way to go.
For instance, I see your name highlighted in YM and it makes me cringe that you’re not clicking mine, but I simply brush it aside.
I never expect to talk to you ever again, much less to see you again and I shouldn’t: you’re gone anyway.
I guess the difference between now and then is that I will not let this loneliness win this time.
I’m putting my foot down.
My life will be a success story because I want it to be.
… October 27, 2009
The unnameable is staring me in the face again.
I guess the only thing that I have to do is face it too, and not let it get the best of me, this time around.
Sure, it will paint my day a shade of blue, but a lighter shade now, somehow more manageable.
I will not let it win.
Time October 24, 2009
“A second isn’t some slice of spacetime, it’s just nine billion motions of a caesium atom. Accelerate to half the speed of light and a second is still nine billion motions of a caesium atom. But there’s only half the local motion there used to be, because the other half is already doing the travelling motion through space. Imagine yourself as a metronome. Each tick is a thought in your head, a beat in your heart, a second of your time.”
A Tension October 22, 2009
My thinking, Dr. Bolet said, is “catastrophic,” meaning that the smallest stimuli sets off a war in my head.
And she is so right.
We also figured out why I am obsessed with weight: “pagbigat means you’ll be rejected.”
It’s really helping, those family sessions. I got to air out some issues.
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Ugh. Here we go again.
I wish I could stop the cycle. I will stop it.
It’s Just… October 20, 2009
Well, goodbye.
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I have another session with Dr. Bolet Baustista again tomorrow, and this time I have to go to her office.
So my mom is picking me up at 10AM, and I have to be back here by around 2.
Oh well.
Don’t know what to say, really.
